Pfizer

I’ve been reading a lot

A lot interesting material

Material about “getting by” and “getting over”

Standard stuff.

Let yourself be sad.

Feel free to heal.

Do things that make you feel pretty or useful.

You are your own complete person.

People send you these kinds of things when they know you’re sad.

They’re just trying to help.

I appreciate them for that.

But there are things that they don’t understand about my process.

Why this is all different than the generic coping mechanisms brought to you by Pfizer.

Or whoever printed the pamphlet that is probably just a loosely related ploy to sell lost people happy pills.

I didn’t feel incomplete before you.

I don’t feel incomplete now.

I am my own content person.

The pinnacle of independence.

Maybe not so much financially but certainly of sound mind.

You can’t tell me what to do or feel so …

Take that you silly pamphlet.

It’s why all of this made so much sense.

Two separate people of sound independence walking side by side respecting the space requirements of the other and being completely OK with that persons’ need to be a separate entity from you sometimes.

It all made sense.

Loners being alone together but also not together when necessary.

The perfect kind of respectful love.

Fantastic in every way except how to handle your preconceived notion of what that all actually means in execution and assuming it’s something other than the fear of losing your independence.

That part I couldn’t find.

Because it doesn’t exist.

I guess Pfizer doesn’t have a pamphlet for me…